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(Fathering. . . )
I had experienced many profound experiences before becoming a daddy. Ive been around the spiritual block. Ive been involved in intentional communities and spiritual ashrams. Ive read some of the important books, done many seminars and labored for years in therapy. Ive encountered and confronted my hard, unloving, uncompassionate self and continue to do so on a regular basis. Ive cleaned out my closet of negativity and am continuing to clean up my act. Ive healed a lot of wounds with my father and made peace with my dead brother. My heart has been split openhealed by lovecrushed by grief. Ive danced, drugged and loved my way into countless forms of bliss. Ive experienced the wisdom of the breath, been moved by deep silence, witnessed the inherent beauty of simplicity, and I have been moved by honest and kind words.
In addition to the Spiritual block, theres another block Ive been around: America. Ive driven through its highways, main streets, and backstreets more of them than I care to remember . . . or can forget. I used to travel city to city selling T-shirts at LOUD rock concerts. Ive paid heavy dues to see and experience the other side, the dark side, where making money was more important than anything else. In my journey down the backstreets, I lost my only blood brother and my innocence. Ive gone down roads that many spiritual seekers might be tempted to say are roads leading nowhere. In my case they would be wrong.
One afternoon, on one of those roads, I met a woman and soon after we had a child.
He is my flesh, my blood and my true reflection. He is my son. His name is Levi.
All great teachers tell us that Love is the answer. Its true, love is the answer for me. The question it answers: What is truly important?
After all these years Ive finally found the cutting edge work that takes me closer to my higher self, out of my mind and into my heart. Focusing my time and energy into raising my son is my spiritual path and it is not only a revelationit is revolutionary.
What is wild to me is that I had to experience so many far out, unconventional, countercultural paths, to discover what Ellen, my Jewish mom, knew all along. Craig, when are you going to settle down and have a family? Her nagging had wisdom in it. More than I suspected.
Many people think that their next great spiritual lesson is going to come from a new teacher or spiritual pursuit. If you are a parent who is paying attention and prioritizing your children over other self realizing, self fulfilling pursuits (without martyrdom), then you probably are experiening many awe-filled, quiet and simple moments of pleasure. The gift of parenting is often in those rare moments in-between all the busy stuff. If you are a father spending your time on your child, giving your full presence, whether youre interested at that moment or not, whether you have that time or not, you are a revolutionary!
Most men were not trained to prioritize their active involvement in their family. How could they? Life skills training for boys is dismal where it involves caring for self or others. Boys are trained in the donts: Dont be a crybaby, Dont let others know youre hurt, Dont let others see that you care, Dont be a wimp, Dont be effeminate, Dont be sensitive to others pain. Boys training: minds overrule hearts. Productivity is more important than sensitivity. Boys are rewarded for paying attention to facts and numbers, not themselves, not others.
For men to unlearn and retrain themselves, going against all theyve been taught about who men are and what men do, is not easy. What men often need is the equivalent of sensitivity training. Many men need to revisit those things they were told are unimportant and learn to trust their intuition. Many men need to revisit that moment when they were given the message men are not supposed to feel. Those men would do good to themselves and those they love by learning about gentleness, kindness, being sweet. It would be an act of a qualitatively different kind of strength for those men to extend compassion and gentleness towards themselves and others.
Men also got the message not to spend too much time paying attention to themselves, i.e. maintaining good selfcare. But it is hard to combat this training at a cellular level. In reclaiming the essence of our human nature, we learn the necessity of caring for oneself and others. This is not as simple as it seems. If a man was not taught to honor these qualities, he will need patience and incredible commitment to learn these lessons. Taking the time and making the effort to honor the hearts logic, creating and prioritizing our child and our family over almost anything else, will, if given a chance, permanently and profoundly alter a mans consciousness. Once men embrace the role of being a father, being a father makes perfect sense. Nothing else can, or ever will feel as true as being a loving involved father. Men who wake up to this, who do the work and make this commitment, lavish an exquisite gift upon themselves, their partners, the community, and, most importantly, their children.
Living and breathing and thinking about our children is what many of us do as our spiritual work. This is the first order of love. I had to write this article to remember this truth. Though men have been trained to respond differently, many fathers, like myself, are heeding the wisdom of their hearts: theirs and their child(ren)s. Fathering is a loving spiritual practice.
Craig Scott Weiss promotes fatherhood issues doing advocasy work and trainings. He is also an elementary school teacher in training. He welcomes your comments and can be reached by e-mail.
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